These days ... I found myself crying a lot every time I go to church... maybe it's just a place where I could finally let it all out. Inside outside I'm going through a lot. Family, directions, needs.. they all seems to push me to a corner.
In a dysfunctional setting, who could give me practical advise? I feel like I'm just picking up a lot of things here unconsciously. I honestly don't want to pick things I don't like... But I found myself picking a lot of things. Of course I do try to dust things off. It looks like there's a lot more underneath.
I definitely miss those days where I could find someone to talk to when I run into things. Not here anymore and I knew it. In such a big city, relationship is more of quantity than quality.
